To be the best Wife, Mom, Daughter, Sister, Friend, and Runner I can be...God willing!

Thursday, May 24, 2012

When not running....

I had my MRI this morning.  It was the closest thing to running I have experienced since I stopped running.  I was by myself, lost in my thoughts, wishing for more time to myself.  All the noise of the machine drowned out everything else and it was just really peaceful.  Hopefully the results will bring me as much peace!

To be perfectly honest not running has been hard, but not as hard as I thought it would be.  There have been positives like
sleeping in until 6:20 each morning
less laundry
no achy muscles (I think all the steroids are helping with this!)
enjoying a more relaxing morning before Emma and Jonah leave for school
more time for cross training
more energy for house projects (like painting the front entryway this week)

But, as with anything there have been drawbacks as well like
not running
having to eat less and that has been really hard!
not running
looking at my treadmill 
not running
wondering if I have lost all the fitness and strength I gained this spring
not running

Obviously I love running and I miss it dearly.  It really is a part of my daily schedule.  My friends know that I love running and you all have been wonderfully sweet to me this week.  I have received texts, Facebook messages, and phone calls from friends just saying they are thinking good thoughts for me.  I appreciate all of it so very much and it really is very comforting!

God is good and I know this is all just part of His plan.  I have said many times that one of my favorite, favorite verses is Proverbs 3:5-6
Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding, but in all your ways acknowledge Him and He will make your paths straight!

Those are such powerful words packed with great advice for living a full life.  I know God will take care of me and carry me through this.  He already has and I am ready for whatever the answer is tomorrow.  I have a plan to move forward whatever the MRI results and I am good with that.

This morning the DJ on KSBJ said she cannot imagine life for someone who cannot take their worries to God.  Well, me neither!  I am so glad I don't have to worry about that.  I am choosing to trust Him no matter how much I may not like it.


  1. I think my list would be very similar to yours. I am so sorry you are not running. I am trying to figure out what is going on in my running world as well. My knee is NOT better after taking 2 weeks off. I am running in a 5K this weekend only because there is a chance I could win $100. Is that bad? Then I am going to have to decide if I go to doctor and/ or take off more time. Ughhhhhh.....

    I hope that you have good MRI results. You have the right attitude and focus. It's just so hard not getting to do what we love.

  2. Trust and letting go to "let God" are two of the hardest things sometimes! Will continue to say prayers for you but know that this will only make you stronger - whatever the outcome of the MRI is!